Blurry Vision....

I started "observing" that my vision has been debilitating in the last few years. Call it perimenopause, working with my hands and eyes in mini accessory-making movements and crafts for years, or simply aging. Luckily for me it's not just me, it's happening to my twin sis too! So that gives me some false hope that it is normal. I remember the numerous amounts of lost readers my grandma used to have and how often she sent us on a quest to find a pair. Now I have been investing in cute ones, the aviators with a rosy tint, the tortoise shelly-looking frame ones, the heavy, the lighter, the cheapy, the cool.

My hubby and I just started the new romantic stage of our lives as empty nesters, dim lights, in cute quiet little bistros, holding hands and sharing my readers. What I have come to realize is that with these readers, came wisdom. I never pay extra for that. It just happens. I put them on, and all of my previous ancestral women's powers come into play. They make me see how lucky I am to be still so young and only need these sporadically. One day I will need the "far" glasses too. For now, I am one of the lucky humans, about to turn 50 who can still read my exit sign while driving home. They make me feel mature, wise beyond my years, interesting, and sexy, yeah why not? What I do know is, that my vision became somewhat wiser with age. I no longer have to hyper-focus on the mini details, I guess I am letting those go more often. I am not obsessing over the pores of my nose and my new wrinkles. I simply can not see up close, it's just a blur. Lately, I have been analyzing why this happens to humans. We love detail. So here is my food for thought: what if we lose our ability to see up close, so we can finally have some peace in our over-focused, and hyper-judgemental thoughts? Maybe this is a gift to be able to finally let go, of some of our major responsibilities of hyper-focusing (for me my children). I see clearly that they will be fine, they are fine, sure they have ups and downs but they are fine. My part of nit-picking is over! At least for that part of my life. I can now peacefully observe from a distance. Sure they come back to me for advice but it is clear to me like 20/20 that they don't need me so much anymore. My focus now will be to share what I have been seeing, experiencing, and living. I will advise if it's needed or asked for, and I will comment if it's required but for the most part, my joy at this particular moment is to observe the fruit of my labor. God knows it has been tough labor. I leave you with this picture, Me sitting in front of my yard, staring at the clouds passing by, listening to the birds accompanying me. Today I had lunch with two squirrels, a rabbit, and some busy bird parents feeding their young reminding me of my hard work. Enjoying my peace, and the annoying sound of the lawnmower in our neighbor's yard. Writing so I don't forget to tell you. We are lucky. We are alive.

Let's focus on the bigger picture and be grateful!!!!! And for all those young busy bees, I wish I could share my vision with you. Life is fast!!!! Enjoy every second of it.

Love, Gabriela.