Life is nuts.

It has been a while since I posted here. I have been busy with life. It never ceases to surprise me. All the ups and downs are a seesaw that carries me, giving me knots in my stomach at times. When I am up, I can see the light, and I feel the adrenaline accelerating my pulse, but when I am down, it shuts my system down. What I have to remember is that it never stays one way or another. The rhythm is never the same, even if I try hard, it is ruled by different energy each time. But the calm always returns, somehow or another. I don't dare to get off. I love this ride. The one that keeps my nerves on fire, also the one that calms them down.

This life of mine is so unpredictable and incredible. I like to look at it, like at this moment, writing this, and reflect. I can choose to rewind, and stay in the rewind, or I can fast forward and imagine the impossible. The truth is that neither one of them is my reality. My reality is this: my fingers hitting all these letters, writing to you. This present moment is solid, is real. It is giving me peace. It does not have a particular agenda or a timeline. It doesn't make much sense at the moment. I am not worried about who will read it, who it will reach, or how it will inspire others. What I know is that I feel good, sharing my thoughts. My words, recorded through technology, work in harmony for my creation.

I look outside the window and see all these squirrels gathering little food. They are so busy with their own little lives. Not aware that through a glass window, someone is admiring their effort. Someone bigger than them. They give me tenderness. How busy and active they look. Working cautiously and fast. So hyper-focused on their one chore, finding food. I like to look at us through this metaphor. The little humans that we are, trying to find our treasures. All of us with different things in mind, hyper-focused inside our brains. If only we could see ourselves through a window. Could we feel tenderness?

I hope that I can find these moments more often. Where I allow myself to sit and reflect. To feel tenderness for myself and others. To give each one respect for all the effort just trying to be.

All my love to you, may peace find you today, and may you accept it in.

Gabriela.

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